Tahajjud Cinta 

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Ku haus di tengah laut
lemas mencari tempat berpaut
kirimkan aku kekuatan
serta pedoman di kesesatan

Ku sunyi dalam gembira
perih pedih tanggung derita
sungguh aku bukan wali
yang suci dari hina dan benci

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Terlalu lama aku mencuba
terlalu banyak
cinta yang ku damba
tiada yang sempurna
hanyalah fana
Tuhan, ampuni hamba-Mu

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Ku rebah di dada malam
memecah dendam yang lama diam
ku tanggalkan baju dunia
dakapku dengan selimut syurga
ya Tuhanku hanya padamu
tempat mengadu segala rindu
limpahi ku rahmat kasihmu
dalam tahajjud cinta bersujud

setiap yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya... 

hanya kita sebagai manusia ni perlu berfikir mana yang terbaik.. 

jangan kerana kesilapan yang lepas kita menghukum orang tersebut tanpa memberi peluang kedua yang mampu mengubah seseorang tersebut.. 

itu kan lebih baik dari terus menjadi tidak baik??!! 

renung-renungkanlah setiap kata-kata yang ada di dalam lirik lagu ni.. 

kepada insan yang bergelar pencinta

masih tercari-cari

assalamualaikum semua.. 

memang sangat dah lama tk bukak blog ni.. bukan apa zatie teringat akan seorang sahabat zatie, arwah farhan.. dia yang banyak mengajar zatie buat blog ni.. sebabnya kitorg memang suka berkongsi cerita satu sama lain. walaupun baru kenal time sama2 belajar diploma dulu.. tapi kitorang selesa jadi kawan.. 

now.. starting my new chapter of life.. dulu zaman belajar..serabai je kan.. muka pun suci sangat.. ahhahaha now beginning new life of workloaded.. ohh yeahhhh.. memang sangat mencabar. terlalu mencabar kesabaran dan keimanan.. mana tk nya.. kejap masalah ni timbul..esok pulak masalah lain datang.. saja je kan u olls nak uji i ni.. takpe la..tu la baru realiti kehidupan.. terlalu banyak cabaran dan dugaan yang perlu kita tempuh. semua yang jadi akan dijadikan pedoman hidup. 

cuma sekarang zatie masih tercari-cari apa itu nilai kebahagiaan.. mungkin nampak macam senang.. keluar la jimba2 dengan kawan ke.. havoc2 dengan officemate ke.. tapi takkan sama dengan apa yang kita cari.. sebab tu sekarang ni zatie banyak menyendiri dan muhasabah diri. mungkin orang tak suka pada kita..cara kita..layanan kita.. it's okay.. i will try to improve myself.. nevermind.. 

tapi apa yang zatie nak cakapkan kat sini ialah kemaafan.. jujur dari hati yang ikhlas itu penting bagi seseorang bergelar manusia.. jangan disebabkan perkara atau kesalahan yang lepas membuatkan kita sukar untuk menerima kemaafan dari orang lain.. benda tu sangat tak adil.. walau sebesar manapun kesalahan yang orang tu buat mungkin itu hanya dugaan yang Allah nak bagi pada hambaNya.. kita kena sedia memaafkan dengan penuh ikhlas.. memang kalau ikutkan hati yang sakit..marah..susah untuk terima maaf orang kan...?? tapi kita perlu cuba.. dengan rasa yang ikhlas tu kita akan sentiasa rasa tenang di sudut hati kita satu hari nanti.. 

tak dinafikan zatie pun sangat banyak buat salah pada orang.. terutamanya pada ibubapa zatie.. haruslah kita meminta kemaafan dari orang tu... now.. zatie rasa bersalah pada seseorang yang penah terbit dalam hati zatie.. nama dia adalah mohd paizal bin usman.. awak.. mohon maaf atas segala kesalahan yang saya dah buat pada awak ye!. janganlah cuba untuk lari lagi. saya memang tak kan dapat buat yang terbaik as your good friend before.. but at least kita jangan putus sahabat.. susah untuk kita maafkan orang tapi percayalah saya bukan insan yang sempurna pada sesiapa pun.. hope awak dapat maafkan kata2 saya sebelum ni.. 

zatie tau awak mesti ada baca blog zatie ni.. sebab awak bole tau cerita pasal zatie dalam ni walaupun dah lama zatie tak update pun.. no worries.. after this i will always update it.. because i dont have the places to share with.. i will share my feelings here.. this is the only way to stay calm.. and one more things is Doa.. this is the best moments i have.. Doa dan tawakal zatie hanya mengadu pada pencipta zatie.. tu la yang zatie amalkan sekarang ni.. 

semoga Allah akan tunjukkan segala yang baik di mata kita.. jauhi dari sebarang malapetaka dan benci-membenci sesama insan.. take care.. will always love u all.. 

wassalam~

Andainya kau tahu
Apa yang ada di dalam hatiku
Tersimpan takkan pernah berubah

Andainya kau tahu
Apa maksudku lafazkan cintaku padamu
Dengan cara yang berbeda
Uh mengapa seharusnya kita masih bersengketa

Demi cintaku demi cintamu jangan biarku terseksa
Hembus nafasku hembus nafasmu adalah udara yang sama
Kerna cintaku kerna cintamu sememangnya satu cinta
Takkan terpisah
Takkan terpisah

Andai ku tak mampu
Leraikan semua kekusutan yang melanda percintaan kita
Mungkin ini semua
Tetap menjadi satu pertanyaan selagi hati belum ada kepastian
Uh mengapa seharusnya kita masih bersengketa

Andainya kau tahu
Apa yang ada di dalam hatiku

assalamualaikum semua..

maaf terlalu lama menyepi diri dalam blog ni.. 

sihat ke?

hari ni hari rabu 13 jun 2012..

huhuhuuu rasanya memang lama sangat lah tak update blog yang tak seberapa nih.. 

ahaks.. 

ok.. apa ya nak mulakan nih???!! blur kejap.. hahahaa

almaklum lah lama tak cuci idea yang dah berkarat nih.. 

huhuhuuu zatie pon kurang sihat hari nih.. 

selsema + batuk + sakit tekak yang tak best nih.. 

grrrrr... sekarang tengah keje..tapi tak selesa.. nak buat call pon suara sengau je.. haihhh

sedih betul laa.. 

hurm.. ok lah cerita tentang keje yang zatie buat sekarang lah..

senang sikit.. 

actually zatie dah habis belajar bulan 4 hari tu..

sekarang ni keje lah sementara nak masuk degree bulan 9 nanti.. 

keje hari2 buat call.. best lah jugak.. relaks.. 

nak masuk keje pukul berapa pon suka hati zatie je kan.. hahahahhaaaa

tapi penat sikit lah keje nih.. 

yang penting happy sudah..

dah banyak yang berubah dalam diri zatie bila keje nih...

belajar macam mana nak berdikari dan berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh.. 

itulah yang menjadi rutin harian.. 

dan buat masa sekarang zatie nak tumpukan pada keje dulu.. sementara masih ada waktu sebelum bulan 9 nih nanti.. jadi zatie akan sibukkan diri dengan keje yang berlambak.. 

setakat nih alhamdulillah lah keje berjalan dengan lancar..

semoga makin bertambah lah rezeki hendakNya.. aminnnn

nak mulakan hidup yang baru.. taknak fikir dah tentang alam percintaan.. 

zatie pernah terfikir dulu..taknak ada apa2 komitmen lagi buat masa sekarang nih.. 

walaupon sementara...zatie percaya pada takdir..

jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan... 

zatie tunggu je orang masuk meminang... 

tunggu lah dari setahun ke dua tahun lagi baru zatie fikirkan hidup untuk berdua.. 

calon banyak... acecehhhhh... cuma kena perlu mencari yang boleh membimbing ke jalan yang benar je.. 

almaklumlahhh zatie nih banyak kekurangannya.. 

perlu ada orang yang sanggup untuk membimbing zatie dengan baik.. 

mungkin dah jumpa orangnya.. cuma belum pasti kebenarannya sahaja...

hahahahhaaaa.... hidup nih bole berubah-ubah..

manusia pon sama... andai kita tersilap langkah sekali, akan menjadi teruk lah selepas itu.. 

zatie tak pernah nak mendoakan sesiapa menjadi yang teruk.. 

cuma zatie harap apa yang dah berlaku jadikan tauladan dan iktibar..

kisah hidup zatie nih sangatlah rumit dan sukar untuk orang fahami.. 

apa yang penting zatie sentiasa doakan yang terbaik kepada seseorang yang pernah ada dalam hidup zatie sebelum nih... semoga dia mendapat bidadari yang lebih baik dan indah dari diri zatie sendiri.. aminnn

zatie mohon maaf andai zatie menyakitkan hati  si dia sebegitu dalam..

bukan niat di hati.. ia datang dengan tiba2... 

setelah zatie membuat solat pada malam hari..

seseorang telah muncul dalam mimpi zatie..

sebab tu zatie buat keputusan macam tu.. 

maafkan saya awak!!! 

saya tau saya banyak menyakitkan hati awak.. perasaan awak.. 

bukan saya tak pernah ada perasaan sayang.. ada SAYANG tu..

tapi saya ikut petunjuk yang dah diberi pada saya... 

maafkan saya sekali lagi... 

kisah zatie memang banyak likunya.. terlalu banyak...

dosa pon banyak juga... kawan2 doakan yang terbaik untuk zatie ya...

zatie sentiasa doakan kawan2 semua dapat yang terbaik dalam hidup korang semua... 

sekiranya ada yang tersinggung..zatie minta maaf sekali lagi.. 

zatie insan biasa... yang banyak salah dan silap.. 

ok lah.. banyak sangat dah nih..haishh..

apa2 pon.. keje kena keje jugak... hahahhaaaa 

curi tulang kejap je nih... bosan + ngantuk kan... bos pulak takde.. hehhehehee

i miss someone that miss me all the time.. 

hope u happy there.. take care... 

assalam~ :)

jejak kasih..

assalamualaikum..hai..

sihat semua?

zatie dah lama sepi dari berceloteh kat blog nih kan.. hee

actually zatie dalam proses menyesuaikan diri untuk bawak kereta..

still tak mahir lagi.. padahal lesen dah full.. haih.. 

tu lah sapa suruh lambat belajar bawak.. 

takpe lah kan.. 

belajar slow2..

ahad hari tu zatie rasa happy sangat2..

mak long zatie ajak datang kumpul ramai2 kat rumah dia..

kitorang celebrate birthday anak buah zatie.. IMAN ZAHRA..

yang buat zatie happy tu bila cousin zatie yang dah lama sangat dan jarang sekali kitorang borak datang join kami yang memang dah masuk air nih... hahaaa

nak tau sapa?? haa...jeng..jeng..jeng..

mak ngah zatie... nurul & angah erol yang datang..

macam mana kami boleh contact balik?? 

ceritanya begini.. 

pada suatu hari... heheee skema je kan.. cett ini budak..

camni la ye.. ANGAH yang kitorang gelar la namanya dalam family kitorang nih.. satu arini zatie bukak FB tiba2 je nampak nama nih.. MOHD HAIRUL HAZLI BAKRI.. now friends with dot3... member zatie la kan..

so agak macam tertanya2 sapa gerangan empunya nama nih... zatie pon jadi stalker la.. hee 

jangan marah eh angah.. hahaaa

tengok je picture..zatie terus melompat2.. alangkah gembiranya orang tu zatie teramat lah kenal kan.. 

* ayat nak bombastik je aku nih.. hah pedulik hapa*..

then terus la add dia.. 

pastu terus offline.. tidur je.. mata ngantok dah time tu..

almaklumlah pukul bape lak kan time tu.. kul 2 lebih tak salah..

esoknya online lik dapat message dari angah..

"salam.. ehhh mcm kenal je..heheeee :p"

cehh ayat nak malu2 pulak kan.. pi gi daaaa

zatie pon apa lagi borak2 la ngan angah..teman dia buat design dia sampai pukul 3 lebih kot.. 

almaklumlah orang graphic nih kan.. kerja suka malam2.. haishhh

ok berbalik balik pada cerita kat umah mak long tu

jangan pening ye.. heee 

zatie suruh abang zatie jemput diorang datang sekali... 

yela.. jumpa pon tak sekali.. cehh cam pantun lak

hahaaa... angah datang la dengan mak ngah & nurul.. 

adik dia yang kecik sekali.. sangat comel nurul nih time kecik2 dulu.. suka gila cam anak cina tol...

kami pon borak2 tak ingat dunia.. best dapat jumpa diorang.. 

gelak2..makan2...menyakat je keje kitorang nih.. 

i love this moment so much la.. 

and 1 thing is my brother look like angah if his hair was straight.. 

kasi roll pic..

ni abang zatie..

ni angah..

bezanya rambut je.. 

bak kata kak nurul & kak ita.. "IJAT NNT AKAK BG PINJAM BLOWER AKAK EH.. KASI LURUS RAMBUT.. MUKA KORG 2 DAH LA LEBIH KURANG.. "

hahaaa.. memang lawak bila dorang jalan sama.. orang siap tanya adik beradik ka??

bukanlah.. sepupu je haaa... 

ni nurul janatunnaim.. cousin zatie.

dan ini my lovely aunty.. mak ngah.. 

thanks for coming in the party..

both are so nice.. love them..

next time kita hang out lagi ok.. 

itulah dia jejak kasih antara kami.. very long story why we just met once in a year..

lepas my pakngah & mak ngah bercerai.. so kitorang dengan anak2 dia jarang la duk jumpa borak2.. 

but now.. FACEBOOK telah menyatukan kami satu family.. family yang besar.. ada lagi cousin2 zatie.. but diorang tak dapat datang that day.. 

ni dia along hizam..nice bro..

ni time abg hapis kawin.. 

they are 1 family..

mak ngah.. along..angah..abg hapis.. abg hariz.. & nurul...

nice...love them.. ^_^

next time jumpa lagi.. take care.. 

salam..~

love~

assalamualaikum..hai..

sihat semua??

zatie rasa dah lama sangat tak update blog nih.. 

huuhuu sorry la ye.. lately zatie busy dengan driving academy... waahhhh

haha nak driving academy apanya?? 

dah ada lesen competent pon nak practice lagi ke??

hehh actually zatie dah lama tak bawak kereta lepas dari accident dulu.. 

ada gak bawak sikit2.. just tak jauh la... zatie masih mencuba..

hee... sedih tol.. lesen dah C pon still belajar lagi..ish3...

anyway takde apa sangat nak story mory nih..

just semalam zatie baru abis tengok cerita korea.. yeahhh 

i love this korean drama soooo much... 

HEARTSTRINGS aka FALLEN FOR ME.. 

both character memang favourite zatie..

JUNG YONG HWA as LEE SHIN

PARK SHIN HYE as LEE KYU WON...

diorang memang best!!!! ^_^

about the sypnosis.

Lee Shin is a university student majoring in modern music. He is also the vocalist and guitarist of the band “The Stupid.” Shin is known for his good looks and strong passion for music, but in reality he is cold, lacks interest in anything unrelated to music and has neither dreams nor plans for the future. He initially likes Jung Yoon Soo, a dance professor at university, but this all changes when he meets Lee Kyu Won.

Lee Kyu Won is a bright and outgoing student who was born into a prestigious family and is majoring in traditional Korean instruments, especially the gayageum. Kyu Won’s grandfather, Lee Dong Gun, is one of the top 3 traditional musicians of his age and his biggest wish is to see his granddaughter become a traditional music prodigy. Trying to live up to her grandfather’s expectations, Kyu Won immerses herself in training and becomes a university student who knows nothing outside of her studies. As her friends are fans of “The Stupid”, she was forced to go to the band’s concert with them. There she saw Lee Shin performing live, and is immediately captivated by him.

best sangat.. LEE KYU WON main gayageum..

LEE SHIN main guitar.. 

hehe..masing2 mempertahankan muzik masing2.. 

good combination.. traditional & modern music.. yeahh..

i like..!

that's all that i want to share about..

all of u must watch this drama.. really2 interesting.. 

cincha... 

take care~ 

salam..

Married or Not??

assalamualaikum..hai..

sihat semua? 

zatie hari nih dan setakat nih sihat la..alhamdulillah.. 

just sejak cuaca tak menentu nih zatie punya tekak dah bengkak sikit.. 

kurang iodin dan air..

terus jadi beGUk.. sakit rasanya bila bab2 nak telan air liur.. makan pon susah sikit la..

tapi takpe.. hope sihat lah esok lusa.. insyaallah..

actually zatie dah terbaca satu artikel nih..

agak menarik tajuk dia.. story pon menyentuh hati nih bila baca tadi..

sebak dan menitis jugak la air mata kan.. huhu

biasalah zatie nih sensitif orangnya.. 

kalau story yang sedih tu dah mengalir air mata nih haa... heee

kisah nih pasal hubungan rumah tangga.. 

just read this article from @sharing media..kat FB lah kan.. mana lagi..

zatie suka semua artikel2 dia.. 

now time to read... enjoy..

【 Marriage 】
「When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes..

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.
— At least, in the eyes of our son — I’m a loving husband...

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! 

i love this story...

u all pon boleh selamatkan rumah tangga u all if u had read this article.. 

very kind wife..just her husband can't see her kindness.. 

guys..love your wife as they are.. 

take care..

salam~